Hohumdiddlydum

Sorry - I have nothing intelligent or interesting to say at this time....

Visit me again in a few days.............


(please please pretty please - I know I am an annoyingly irregular blogger..... I am sorry - I will reform.... I promise.... just say you will visit me - I will do anything.....)

Solitude

At times I feel a deep deep solitude... I am along way from home.

Oh The Misery...

Oh the mistery of it all!!! What cruelty!

They build you up just to pull you down!

Where have all my fans gone? Why don´t they love me any longer? I can´t survive without them!

Oh the woes!

Ahhhh what it is to be famous!

Ahhhhh what it is to be famous!

I have been in this beautiful country a month and already I have won huge fame! People bow down at my feet, praising me! They beg for an autograph, for a stand of my golden hair or a touch of my pale skin. It is no longer safe for me to leave the house without security and have been forced to aquire an entourage of 25 to keep me safe and help with my ever growing fan club.

Ok ok... no entourage or fan club... or people bowing down at my feet - but I have just been interviewed for Brazilian TV...

Im sure its only a matter or time....

Right?

...

So here I am

So here I am - in BRAZIL!!!

And I have been sooo busy I havnt been entering entries... tut tut tut...

Well... this one is not going to be much of one Im afraid... tired, spent too long on the internet writing mails, have to unpack 64kgs of luggage and repack small bag for trip to the island tomorrow... such a hard life...

Promise to do a proper entry on my return...

(PS: its wonderful here - you should try it ;-) hehehe)

Oh My Goodness II

Oh my goodness! Only 19 days to go!!!! Wow this has crept up so quickly!

I got my first twinge of real excitement yesterday morning... I was looking through some photo's of Rio for my concert programme cover (23rd nov, Grosvenor Chapel, Mayfair 7.30) and I came to one of Christ the Redeemer... it suddenly hit me that I would be there soon having my photo taken!

I am now feeling pretty exited all the time! I have butterflies in my stomach!

I stupidly organised this concert for a week and a bit before I move, so I don't have much time to organise my packing and everything but I think it will be ok. I am having to concentrate on my singing for the concert so Im not able to see my friends until it is over which I am quite upset about, but there is nothing else I can do! I think it will all be ok as long as I dont slack off now!!!

Only 6 more days at work! Now that is nice! Im really looking forward to performing and teaching for my money instead of this office job! I think I will really enjoy teaching. Which reminds me - I must buy some books!!! I think teaching English for business use will be the best earner and teaching children will be the fun part. I have already lined up 2 victims!

Anyway best get on and do my progamme notes....

Oh My Goodness

Oh my goodness - only 43 days to go until I leave this country for the Big Unknown.

Suddenly my actions of 5 months ago are staring me in the face.

Am I ready to go? Do I want to go? Why am I going? What is it that I want to learn about myself? Have I made the right decision? How much will I miss my Family? How much will I miss my Friends? Will I cope without these people in my everyday life? Do I want to leave Them? Will They come and visit me? How long will I be in Brazil? When will I know to stay or leave? What will be the determining factors in that decision? Will there be enough work for me to be able to perform? If not, what will I do? How will I cope with the language barrier? Will I be able to make my own friends? How will I meet people? Will I be able to take a music course in the University? How will I pay for everything? Will I be able to get work as an English teacher? How will I get in touch with a local project to volunteer at? Will I be able to cope emotionally with this kind of work? Will I like the environment in which I will live? Will I be safe? What adjustments will I have to make in order to be safe and feel safe? How will I meet musical people? Will I be a burden on my Guide and my Hosts? When will I have my own space? Will the country live up to my expectations? Will it be as magical and beautiful as I have imagined it to be? Will the people be as welcoming and kind as I think that they are?

So many questions... and no answers.